Hi,
So, you thought with all this very comfortable weather I'd have been working out everyday? Wrong! I don't know what it is, but by the time my alarm clock goes off, I'm ready to turn it on the the second alarm
and forgoe my chance to go to the gym. I honestly can't say why I've been like that. I'm trying to work through that. I do know I've been beating myself up about it though.
I felt bad today. Literally and figuratively. I had made arrangements with a friend to go for a "stroller walk" along the harbourfront but I felt so ill I had to cancel. We've been trying to get together since the beginning of July. Yet another thing to beat myself up over.
Why do we do that? We set up expectations of how we should behave, what we should be able to fit into our schedules and accomplish in a day and when we can't meet these ofttimes unreasonable expectations, we
take an emotional nosedive.
We really need to learn to love ourselves. I don't mean in the Whitney Houston theoretical Greatest Love of All way. I mean do little things for ourselves throughout the day to be nice to ourselves. Take fifteen
minutes to read a book.
Do your nails or better yet, get a manicure. Allow yourself to have a half hour nap. We push ourselves aside to meet the daily grind and in the process lose what we really love about ourselves. What about the creative spark your friends have always admired? Are you losing that?
Do you have the gift to comfort others but have decided you don't have time for it anymore? If you ignored
your best friend's gifts and abilities and started to avoid making time for them, do you think they'd be your best friend for very long?
So why do we treat ourselves any differently?
I guess my reason for this rant is that I started this weight loss journey to be nice to myself. By missing my workouts this week I've not been reaching that objective. It's time I take to be by myself.
I've noticed a difference in my attitude. My temper's a lot shorter this week. Don't your kids get cranky and prone to melt downs when they're not getting the attention they deserve? So why am I treating myself differently?
My goal for next week is to take every opportunity to work out. By the way, I lost .6 of a lb. this week, exceeding last week's goal of 30 pounds by .2 pounds. I'm very excited about that, even though for some
reason I feel like I don't deserve to have lost weight last week. I guess that's an issue I need to work on, feeling that I deserve to be smaller.
Have a great week!
Sarah
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